February 2012
2 posts
It feels like theres a baseball in my throat. I’ve put this situation in the back of my mind because I didn’t wanna have to face the fact that I have to get rid of my pride and joy. I know I didn’t give him the greatest home, but I can tell you that I did love him with all of my heart and I never wanted anything but the best for him. He was the perfect little kitten and I can...
June 2011
1 post
Long time no see,huh? Wish I could have updated tons more but I don’t have a laptop nor does anyone in my apartment. Things have been so normal it’s a wee bit scary. Too normal for me. Things with my family are fantastic, Im getting closer with old (and new) friends, I quit smoking cigs, turned 21, have the coolest bartending job, caught up on all my bills, still have my apartment, and...
May 2011
1 post
in a room full of people who love me
And still i feel lonely
April 2011
9 posts
"There is something beautiful about all scars of...
Heaaaaaaaard that!
Bud light . 4 good friends. Gorgeous weather . Skirt on hairs long . Oriental express. Watching the wire. Sunshine :)
Well
Ive been really sick for like a week. Im broke. My cousin was in CHOP ( heart surgery went well) and I just found out my dad was in a motorcycle accident. Cant even cry anymore… Shits been so shitty. But I keep a smile on and try and carry on . Ill be the responsibile child and go to work instead of driving to philly to see my father…
March 2011
16 posts
You know I still know how ,how much your love cost . You know when I peel back your layered lip gloss . You know I still know how to fuck your eyes crossed. Its your loss. Its your loss
What have I become my sweetest friend? Everyone I know goes away in the end. You can have it all, my empire of dirt. I will let you down, I will make you hurt.
Blahblahblah. Good girls always finish last. Sad. About to take a cannon to the face. Sigh.
:)
So its the most gorgeous day out Ive got the windows open in my new apartment eating doritos , smoking boagies, and drinking mountain dew. Talking with Kev about our hilarious time last night and jamin to old school rap. Idk about you but Im so fucking content with my life right now.
Falling
Away.
I
Can’t face this right now . It’s eaten me alive forever. All things are brought into light . Feel like I’m gonna vom . No bueno . At all.
Finishing
Up my art paper then sleepy medz and bed. Class then handing in our apartment applications then class again then SPRING BREAK :). Seeing my love Kevvy O on friday puttin my dance pants on! New York on Saturday, drinks with Julianne sometims this week and so much more I plan to do . GAHH too excited :D .
February 2011
65 posts
:)
Seeing my long lost love Kevin Orfield tonight. Win.
Eeeeeek.
Rain :)
“All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think, we become.”- Guatama Buddha
“Today you are you, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is youer than you.”- Dr. Seuss
And then it hit me....
the things I’m stuck on in my mind are never going to go my way.
……and finally I think I’m okay with that :).
Day 2 :
Im a completely different person than I was two years ago. My appearance hasn’t changed much in my opinion but everything else did a flip flop. I used to be so reserved and standoffish. I was stuckup and oblivious ,now im the opposite. I try and live with a free mind always ready for change. I miss my old self in some ways but Ive grown so much as a person recently that the past is...
Day 1:
Im really weird when im alone. Probably the way I talk sing and dance when no one is around. Ill get so into dancing to a song that I smile to myself and look like a creepo .
Going to class
with this skin infection slash poison ivy infected face. Never again am I doing photoshoots in the woods with sticks as my halo…
Broke down today. Tried to mend some friendships, texted Danny, cut off someone who I never wanted to , and fought with my mother. All lead to my emergency doctor visit , tons of bloodwork, two prescriptions, many a tears, and a doctor who is probably scared of...
So much pain
if my face gets any worse then I’m driving myself to underwood memorial. My ear could seriously pop its so swollen. Fuck dddduuuuude.
hilarious and horrible
My ears blew up from poison ivy. THEYRE HUGE o.O.
I need a hug and to stop itching !
yep.
I was wrong for thinking i could stop the medicine . This is bad. Its too late to pick it up now. Time for work. Sigh
I’m at the point where I want to go into a church and scream. Why can’t I be fucking happy? Where the fuck is my happiness? I’m a good person… SO WHY CANT SHIT JUST GO RIGHT.
Everyone is leaving . This happens to me all the time, and everyone wonders why I don’t bother to get close to people. It’s beginning to get so hard to act like I don’t care....
I wonder...
if you wonder .
And it kills me so much. I’m sorry but no one else looks into my eyes like you do. Do you know what its like to feel that feeling? When someone looks into your eyes and it feels like that gaze goes deep down into your soul. It makes you feel loved. It makes you feel worth it. It makes you feel like you have a damn purpose. It’s been far too long since I’ve felt...
